positive

I Will Try to Be Positive because there are still people like you guys, Lamont/Carla/Gordon, several of those i work for etc in the world. 

And .. I haven't yet lost my ability to be enthralled by: A Piece of Music , Work of Art, or even a darn Cat brushing up against my leg to say hello in greeting. (Whatever supposedly genius brain-scientist came to the conclusion animals were without emotion needs his or her fuckin head examined based on my observations of the beings)

I still notice genuine gratitude in people when I do a good deed or random act of kindness. And honestly , Whether it's  because they're *Deterministically Designed that way and/ or reacting to various external forces that shape their mode of being or some other reason.. that's irrelevant. I just know it's a far FAR better feeling than The Emptiness that I feel so often when I distance myself from it all and go into The Black Place. 

In simplest words: People are WORTH the hassle. &

Love is worth the pain it sometimes brings, when it tears open those calloused scabs that have set up and festered on a heart so long. 

I'll try to be positive because: I still find myself surprised by random moments and the small (seemingly ) simple things/life moments I playfully scoff at when I'm in more cynical moods. 

&

Because 

36 yrs. Later and the shittier parts of life haven't managed to completely beat the heart out of me yet. And I still have love to show/give . Whether I bitch and bicker over it the entire way through or not. My Star has Not Dimmed, only flickered.

I will be positive because I have more people in my corner now than at any point in my life, and they CARE for/believe in me. And I'm curious to see how The Dance transpires. (challenge still accepted my friend. Sorry about earlier. I think I was purging. I'm good. )