"A Boy and His Dog"

“Your room still looks like shit!” he screamed. (The rage burning in his eyes like bonfires in summertime always made my youthful blood run colder than constant winter.) “I thought I told you to clean it, boy?!” he spat. His bloodshot eyes and dilated pupils indicated he'd already had his liquid breakfast (as he humorously termed it). “I'm...I'm sorry, Uncle Dick,” I responded meekly. “I did my best. I was at it for hours.” Chad always trashes my room when he's here and never helps clean up the mess! My voice had a whiny, panicked tone that sounded weak and pathetic to my own ears and filled me with an even greater amount of shame than what I often felt each time I displeased the hard and hate-filled man who was (in many ways) like a second father to me. “Oh, don't give me that shit, Chad's ass! You were up there with him the whole time, and it's your responsibility to keep shit locked down, you hear? It's up to you. Ain't nobody else gonna hold your hand, wipe your ass, or be your fuckin' maid, kid. Do you hear me?” “Yes,” I whispered softly, defeated. (His odd ability to blend fundamental truths and insights with his own bizarre and illogical self-logic never failed to keep me confused and questioning my own perceptions of reality and truth.) “Yes, what?” he asked/rasped expectantly. “Yes, sir!” I yelled as loudly as I could, the shame further intensified by my fool's compliance with this madman's expectations. “This is the third time,” he whispered, voice deceptively soft. “I'm sorry,” I tried again more earnestly this time. “Sorry's ass!” he barked, cuffing me upside the head hard enough that I saw bright starbursts of pain flicker briefly behind my tear-filled eyes. Then, as he drew back his hand for a better swing, Shadow (my black dog I'd found abandoned a few months back and made a pet) came out of nowhere and sank her teeth into his arm. Because of his drunken state, it had little real effect on him, but already I could see blood oozing out of his arm where Shadow was still latched onto him, growling savagely and jerking her head back and forth in swift, jerking motions. “Fuckin' mutt!!” he screamed in a high-pitched, near-squeal, slinging Shadow across the yard and into the big oak tree. (The sound her body made crashing into that tree is a sound that replays in my head even to this day.) I could tell immediately that her back was broken by the way she writhed painfully, whimpering, trying to get up but unable to make her legs work enough to stand. Her deep, intelligent brown eyes peered into mine, seeming to say, “Are you okay?” Even in her painful state, she was my protector, my best friend, and constant companion, who cared for me and showed me love when few others ever did (either because they had none left in them to give or simply didn't know how). The guilt I felt was immediate, clenching my guts tight and filling me with such self-hatred that I could have died in that moment and found my only joy in death. “I told Sandi that bitch was dangerous. She's snapped at me before, twice now!” my Uncle said. The self-indignation in his voice added a new layer to my hatred. He was a monster, I thought then (and still believe to this day), far worse than any I had read about in the fairytale books I often read when chores were done. And the worst kind of monster...because he was human and real. After spacing out, lost in my own reverie for a moment, his voice broke through the mental barriers my mind had momentarily put in place to process the events that had just transpired. “She's your responsibility,” he said, reaching his arm out to me. In my semi-conscious dream state, I hadn't even noticed he'd unholstered the .45 Colt Revolver that he always carried on him. He was holding it out now, patiently, expectantly, waiting for me to take it. As if by my own accord, I saw my hand reaching out and taking the gun. And in my head, I imagined several horrible, unthinkable scenarios playing out (most of which involved shooting him in the head and then turning the gun on myself). But at that timeless moment in time, at that moment, I simply took the gun and walked with him over to where Shadow was laying, squirming painfully on the ground.

“Maybe I could keep her chained up from now on?” I begged/pleaded, my voice so thick with tears I was surprised he understood me enough to answer: “She ain't comin' back from that one, Buddha-Boy.” (My family called me Buddha-Boy back then because I was a bit over 200 lbs. and had the build of those popular fat versions of Buddha that you always saw everywhere in novelty shops.) “And she's dangerous.” He continued. “Needs put down. For her sake and others.” “Once a dog gets a taste of blood, they're ruined, boy. Can't ever trust 'em again, y'hear?” “I CAN'T,” I screamed. My voice taking on a strength and loudness I had never known or expressed before. “She's YOUR fuckin' responsibility. YOU BROUGHT THE GODDAMN THING HERE!!” He screamed. His slurred, drunken voice filling with a rage I'd long since come to know and dread. (And sadly, for a long time after, reflect.) “Now, you take care of your business RIGHT GODDAMN NOW, or I'll stomp the bitch to bits right here in front of you, you goddamn pussy little FUCK!!” I knew it was hopeless then. No chance for compromise. No magical fairies or strong heroes like the ones from my stories would come, wave their wands, and restore my friend to health or bravely defeat the monster towering over me now. Without another word, I walked over to Shadow, my best friend and constant companion, aimed the gun at her head (avoiding eye contact as best I could), looked away, and pulled the trigger. The roar was deafening, and the gun bucked in my hand enough that I felt a slight pain in my wrist. Looking down at Shadow's still, dead frame did something to me. Something in me faded. That light of hope Pastor Bacon always talked about in church. My blood ran cold, tears dried up. Everything went numb. Numb to the point I didn't feel anything good, bad, or painful. And in that horrible moment, I was extremely grateful for that cold numbness. 

(Because I had just killed my best friend.)

J.Stephen.H.

Methods of Propaganda and the effects of corporate ownership on mainstream society.

By J.Stephen.H. (3rd version.)

 

Introduction

Propaganda has been a tool for shaping public opinion and influencing societal norms throughout history. In modern times, with the advent of mass media and the integration of digital platforms, propaganda methods have evolved significantly, becoming more sophisticated and pervasive. Coupled with this are concerns about corporate ownership of mainstream media, which has led to a consolidation of power and influence that potentially undermines democratic processes and negatively affects society. This essay explores the various methods of propaganda, the implications of corporate media ownership, and their combined impact on society.

**Methods of Propaganda**

Propaganda is defined as information, especially of a biased or misleading nature, used to promote a political cause or point of view. Common methods of propaganda include:

1. **Bandwagon:** This method encourages people to think or act in a certain way because "everyone else is doing it." The idea is to create an impression of widespread support and acceptance.

2. **Card Stacking:** This involves presenting only the positives or negatives of an idea, proposal, or product, thereby skewing perception to favor one side excessively. It is essentially selective omission.

3. **Glittering Generalities:** This tactic uses vague, emotionally appealing phrases that are closely associated with highly valued concepts and beliefs. It sways audiences without presenting concrete evidence.

4. **Name-Calling:** This technique involves labeling opponents with derogatory terms to create a negative perception, often bypassing rational critique.

5. **Plain Folks:** By portraying leaders, policies, or products as being "just like you," this method attempts to build trust and relatability, suggesting that the intentions are noble and common-sensical.

6. **Testimonials:** In this approach, endorsements from celebrities or authority figures are used to persuade audiences. The seemingly respected opinion induces acceptance.

7. **Transfer:** It involves projecting positive or negative qualities of a person, entity, or value to another in order to make it more acceptable or discredited.

**Corporate Ownership of Mainstream Media**

The ownership and control of mainstream media by a small number of powerful conglomerates have profound implications for how information is disseminated and consumed. The concentration of media ownership has several negative effects:

1. **Homogenization of Content:** With fewer entities controlling media outlets, there is a risk of a reduced diversity of viewpoints and narratives. This leads to a homogenized media landscape where alternative perspectives are marginalized.

2. **Commercial Bias:** Media outlets owned by corporations may prioritize content that serves their business interests. This can result in the underreporting of issues that conflict with corporate agendas or the overemphasis of those that do.

3. **Political Influence:** Corporate owners may exert influence over editorial decisions, shaping news coverage and political discourse to favor specific policy outcomes or political candidates.

4. **Decline in Investigative Journalism:** The profit-driven nature of corporate media can lead to the prioritization of sensationalism and infotainment over in-depth investigative journalism, which is resource-intensive and less immediately profitable.

**Negative Effects on Society**

The combination of sophisticated propaganda techniques and corporate control over media narratives presents challenges for democratic societies:

1. **Erosion of Public Trust:** As media conglomerates prioritize profit and their own narratives, public trust in media institutions diminishes. This skepticism can lead to increased susceptibility to misinformation and fake news.

2. **Polarization:** Propaganda techniques can deepen societal divisions by reinforcing existing biases and promoting "us vs. them" mentalities. Corporate media may amplify these divides for higher engagement and revenue.

3. **Informed Citizenship:** A well-informed citizenry is crucial for the healthy functioning of democracy. When media is driven by propaganda and corporate interests, the information landscape becomes skewed, making it difficult for citizens to make informed decisions.

4. **Consumer Culture:** The concentration of media ownership can also promote consumerism. By controlling advertising channels and content, corporations shape societal values to prioritize materialism over community and civic engagement.

5. **Suppression of Dissent:** When media outputs are controlled by a few, dissenting voices are often muted or ignored. This limits the public discourse and stifles the diversity of thought necessary for societal progress.

**Conclusion**

The interplay between propaganda and corporate ownership of mainstream media presents significant challenges for contemporary society. While propaganda methods have become more sophisticated with technological advancements, the consolidation of media ownership underscores a more profound issue: the potential undermining of democratic values and the healthy functioning of society. Addressing these issues requires critical media literacy among the public, regulatory reforms to ensure diverse and independent media landscapes, and a commitment to preserving the integrity of journalism. As citizens, understanding and confronting these dynamics is essential to fostering a more informed and equitable society.

J.StePheN.h

May I have your attention Attention plz

 To

 Headline: The Declining Attention Span Crisis: A Growing Concern in the Digital Age

 Lead:

Recent studies highlight a troubling trend: the average human attention span is decreasing, particularly among younger generations. This phenomenon, often linked to the proliferation of digital media and social platforms, has significant implications for education, productivity, and overall cognitive health.

The decline in attention spans is not a new concern but has become more pronounced in recent years. Studies suggest that the average human attention span has dropped from 12 seconds in the early 2000s to just 8 seconds, even shorter than that of a goldfish. This reduction is most evident among younger individuals, especially those heavily engaged with digital media and social platforms like TikTok, Instagram, and Twitter. The trend has sparked discussions among psychologists, educators, and tech experts about the broader impacts on learning and mental health.

The reduction in attention spans is largely attributed to the pervasive influence of digital technology. Short-form content, such as TikTok videos, Instagram stories, and tweets, encourages rapid consumption and minimal engagement time. This has trained users, particularly Gen Z, to expect quick information bursts, making it harder to focus on longer tasks or content. 

According to a study by Liberty University, the average attention span has decreased to around 8 seconds. This issue is particularly pressing in educational settings, where traditional teaching methods often struggle to capture and maintain students' attention. Educators are now exploring innovative strategies such as shorter lessons, interactive activities, and flexible seating arrangements to enhance engagement【9†source】.

Dr. Jane Markland, a cognitive psychologist, notes, "The shift towards digital media consumption has fundamentally altered our cognitive processes. We're seeing a generation that is less able to sustain attention and more prone to distraction, which can have long-term effects on learning and mental health."

John Pratka, an educator, states, "We've had to adapt our teaching methods significantly. Incorporating technology in a controlled manner and breaking down lessons into shorter, more engaging segments has become essential."

While the decline in attention spans is widely acknowledged, some experts argue that the issue may not be as severe as it seems. They suggest that the ability to process information quickly and multitask, skills honed by digital media, could be beneficial in today's fast-paced world. However, this viewpoint does not diminish concerns about the negative impacts on deep learning and concentration.

Efforts to combat shrinking attention spans include promoting mindfulness practices, reducing screen time, and encouraging activities that require sustained focus, such as reading and puzzles. There is also a growing interest in understanding how different media types affect cognitive functions and how to design educational and professional environments that better align with current attention span trends.

As society continues to adapt to the digital age, the challenge of maintaining focus and attention becomes increasingly critical. Addressing this issue requires a multifaceted approach, including educational reforms, parental guidance, and broader societal awareness. Future research will be vital in developing strategies to help individuals of all ages manage their attention in a world saturated with digital stimuli.

Thomas

 Thomas,

Thank You for the invite. And although I wish we had met under better, much happier circumstances, it's good to finally (more formally ) make your acquaintance. (Although I must say that over the years of our correspondence, I feel as though I already know you, thanks in large part to Katherine's penchant for vivid description in her many letters.)

Your Mother was very important to me, and I fear it's going to take a long time to adjust to the loss of her. But I hope that getting to know you in these coming weeks will make the transition of that grief ultimately more bearable. 

Already I feel a profound emptiness in my Soul in knowing I won't be sending (or receiving) any more letters. And it's still a terrible shock to me. 

Of course I will attend the funeral and I appreciate the invite to stay at your house and get to know you better. I think Katherine would have been comforted by the knowledge I am fulfilling a promise made to her quite some time ago. (more on that later though.)

Again, I'm truly sorry for your loss, and my deepest condolences to you and your family in these most trying times. If there's anything I can do between now and then to make the process any the more easier, please don't hesitate to let me know .

Kindest regards,

Stephen H.

Wainwright

Title:Wainwright.

Genre: Supernatural Horror/graphic

novel. 

*

 Episode 1: "The Awakening"

---

**Scene 1: Deserted Town - Dusk**

*The scene opens with a wide shot of a deserted western town at dusk. Dust swirls in the wind as the sun sets, casting an eerie glow over the empty streets.*

**Narrator:** (V.O.) In the dying light of a forgotten town, a dark tale unfolds—a story of vengeance, loss, and the supernatural.

---

**Scene 2: Cemetery - Midnight**

*Wainwright, a rugged cowboy, stands in the cemetery, facing off against Colonel Gravesend, a sinister figure in a minister's attire. Gravestones loom around them, casting long shadows.*

**Wainwright:** (gritting his teeth) This ends tonight, Gravesend.

**Colonel Gravesend:** (smirking) You can't escape your fate, Wainwright. Not even in death.

*They draw their guns. Shots ring out. Wainwright is hit and falls to the ground, clutching his wound.*

---

**Scene 3: Cemetery - Later**

*Wainwright lies on the ground, barely conscious, as the sound of footsteps approaches. Bokku, a Vodou priest, appears, wearing traditional robes and holding a staff adorned with talismans.*

**Bokku:** (softly) The spirits whispered to me of a soul in need. (kneels beside Wainwright) Fear not, for your journey is not yet over.

*Bokku begins a ritual, chanting softly. A mystical energy surrounds Wainwright, and his eyes flutter open, filled with a strange light.*

---

**Scene 4: Bokku's Hut - Dawn**

*Wainwright wakes in a dimly lit hut, surrounded by symbols and artifacts. Bokku watches over him.*

**Bokku:** (calmly) The loa have chosen you, Wainwright. You now possess the power to command the spirits of the departed.

**Wainwright:** (confused, weak) What have you done to me?

**Bokku:** (smiling) I have given you the means to seek your vengeance and protect the innocent. But be warned, power comes with a price.

*Wainwright sits up, looking at his hands, which now faintly glow with ethereal light.*

---

**Scene 5: Town's Main Street - Day**

*Wainwright stands in the middle of the town, his expression hardened. He raises his hands, and shadows around him begin to shift and coalesce into spectral forms.*

**Wainwright:** (commanding) Spirits of the departed, hear my call. Aid me in my quest for justice!

*The spirits respond, swirling around him, their ghostly forms ready to assist.*

---

**Scene 6: Gravesend's Hideout - Night**

*Colonel Gravesend sits in his hideout, unaware of the approaching danger. Wainwright, flanked by shadow spirits, stands outside, ready to confront his nemesis once more.*

**Wainwright:** (murmuring) This time, Gravesend, justice will be served.

*He steps forward, the spirits moving with him, as the scene fades to black.*

---

**Transition:** *The camera pulls back, showing the moonlit town as shadows swirl around Wainwright, hinting at the supernatural forces now at his command.*

---

**End of Episode 1**

---

**Notes for Visuals:**

1. **Visual Style:** Neo-noir with supernatural elements, highlighting the contrast between the old west setting and mystical aspects.

2. **Setting:** Deserted town, eerie cemetery, mystical hut filled with Vodou artifacts.

3. **Character Appearance:** Wainwright - rugged cowboy; Colonel Gravesend - sinister, dressed as a minister; Bokku - traditional Vodou priest attire.

4. **Key Visual Elements:** Ethereal glow around Wainwright post-possession, shadow spirits with an otherworldly aura, mystical symbols in Bokku's hut.

***

### Episode 2: "Shadow's Embrace"

---

**Scene 1: Gravesend's Hideout - Night**

*The scene opens with Wainwright and his shadow spirits standing before the hideout. The spirits swirl around him, ready for action. Wainwright's eyes glow faintly with the power of the loa.*

**Wainwright:** (determined) Tonight, justice will find you, Gravesend.

*He gestures, and the spirits move towards the hideout, seeping through walls and windows. Inside, Gravesend hears whispers and feels a chill.*

---

**Scene 2: Inside the Hideout - Continuous**

*Gravesend stands in the dimly lit room, sensing the presence of the spirits. He grabs his gun, eyes darting around nervously.*

**Colonel Gravesend:** (voice shaky) Show yourself, Wainwright!

*The shadows in the room deepen, and Wainwright steps forward, his form merging with the darkness.*

**Wainwright:** (calmly) You took everything from me, Gravesend. Now, you'll face the consequences.

*Gravesend raises his gun, but the shadow spirits disarm him, the weapon clattering to the floor. Gravesend falls to his knees, panic spreading across his face.*

**Colonel Gravesend:** (pleading) Mercy, Wainwright! I was following orders!

**Wainwright:** (coldly) No mercy for the wicked.

*He gestures, and the spirits envelop Gravesend, dragging him into the shadows. Gravesend's screams echo in the darkness as the scene fades to black.*

---

**Scene 3: Bokku's Hut - Day**

*Wainwright returns to Bokku, looking both triumphant and troubled. Bokku observes him carefully.*

**Bokku:** (serene) You have taken your revenge, but do not let the shadows consume your soul.

**Wainwright:** (weary) I did what I had to do. But the darkness... it feels like it's becoming a part of me.

**Bokku:** (nodding) Power comes at a cost. You must learn to balance it, or risk losing yourself to the shadows.

*Wainwright nods, understanding the gravity of his new reality.*

---

**Scene 4: Deserted Town - Twilight**

*Wainwright stands alone in the deserted town, the sun setting behind him. The spirits hover nearby, silent and watchful.*

**Narrator:** (V.O.) In the twilight of his journey, Wainwright stands at a crossroads. The shadows that grant him power also threaten to consume him.

*He looks toward the horizon, a mixture of resolve and uncertainty on his face.*

**Wainwright:** (murmuring) I've avenged my family, but my path is far from over.

*He mounts his horse, the spirits following, as he rides into the distance, leaving the town behind.*

---

**Scene 5: Open Plains - Dusk**

*As Wainwright rides across the plains, the camera pans to the sky, where dark clouds gather. Thunder rumbles, hinting at a storm.*

**Narrator:** (V.O.) In a world where light and dark intertwine, the shadows whisper of battles yet to come.

*The scene ends with a dramatic pull-back, showing Wainwright as a small figure in the vast landscape, heading toward an uncertain future.*

---

**Transition:** *The screen fades to black, with the sound of wind and distant thunder echoing.*

---

**End of Episode 2**

---

**Notes for Visuals:**

1. **Visual Style:** Maintain the Neo-noir aesthetic, emphasizing the interplay of light and shadow.

2. **Character Appearance:** Highlight Wainwright's transformation with subtle changes in his demeanor and appearance, such as darker eyes or a more somber expression.

3. **Key Visual Elements:** The spectral nature of the shadow spirits, the eerie atmosphere of the hideout, and the mystical aura around Bokku's hut.

***

### Episode 3: "The Burden of Power"

---

**Scene 1: Forest Path - Dawn**

*Wainwright rides through a dense forest, the morning mist clinging to the ground. The shadow spirits glide beside him, whispering in a language only he can understand.*

**Wainwright:** (to the spirits) You speak of dangers ahead. What lies in wait for us?

*The spirits swirl in response, their forms hinting at ominous shapes. Wainwright tightens his grip on the reins, eyes narrowing.*

---

**Scene 2: Crossroads Village - Day**

*Wainwright enters a small village nestled at a crossroads. The villagers eye him warily, sensing the supernatural aura that surrounds him. He dismounts, approaching a local tavern.*

*Inside the tavern, the atmosphere is tense. People stop talking as Wainwright walks in, their eyes on him.*

**Bartender:** (nervous) What can I get you, stranger?

**Wainwright:** (calmly) Information. I'm looking for someone—a man named Gravesend.

*The mention of the name causes a stir. Whispers spread, and a few patrons quickly leave.*

**Bartender:** (hesitant) Heard he was seen around here, but that man's bad news. You should be careful.

**Wainwright:** (grimly) I am the bad news.

*He tosses a coin on the counter and leaves, the spirits following closely.*

---

**Scene 3: Village Outskirts - Dusk**

*Wainwright stands at the village's edge, watching the sun set. He feels a disturbance in the air, turning to see a group of armed men approaching, led by a stern-looking sheriff.*

**Sheriff:** (authoritative) We don't take kindly to strangers causing trouble. State your business and be on your way.

**Wainwright:** (calmly) I'm here for Gravesend. He has to answer for his crimes.

**Sheriff:** (grimly) Gravesend's a powerful man. This village owes him a debt, and he doesn't take kindly to interference.

*Wainwright glances at the spirits, who nod. He steps forward, and shadows start to gather around him.*

**Wainwright:** (firmly) The dead owe no debts. And neither do I.

*A confrontation brews, tension thick in the air.*

---

**Scene 4: Confrontation - Night**

*The standoff escalates. Wainwright, using his powers, calls forth the spirits to create a protective barrier. The armed men hesitate, fear spreading among them.*

**Sheriff:** (shouting) What kind of devilry is this?

**Wainwright:** (resolute) Leave now, or join the spirits that haunt these lands.

*The sheriff, realizing they are outmatched, signals for his men to retreat. They slowly back away, leaving Wainwright alone at the crossroads.*

*As the last of the men disappear, Wainwright's shoulders sag, the burden of his powers evident.*

---

**Scene 5: Forest Clearing - Midnight**

*Wainwright finds a secluded clearing and sits by a campfire. The spirits hover around him, silent witnesses to his solitude.*

**Wainwright:** (whispering) I fear the darkness is growing within me. How long before I lose myself completely?

*The spirits swirl in response, offering no clear answers.*

**Wainwright:** (sighing) For now, we continue. But I must find a way to balance this power.

*He gazes into the flames, lost in thought, as the scene fades to black.*

---

**Transition:** *The camera pans up to the night sky, stars twinkling as a soft breeze rustles the leaves, hinting at the mysteries that lie ahead.*

---

**End of Episode 3**

---

**Notes for Visuals:**

1. **Visual Style:** Maintain a consistent Neo-noir aesthetic, with an emphasis on the interplay of light and shadow.

2. **Character Appearance:** Wainwright's weariness should be subtly conveyed, with hints of the supernatural influence becoming more pronounced.

3. **Key Visual Elements:** The spectral presence of the shadow spirits, the tense atmosphere of the village, and the eerie beauty of the forest clearing.

Thomas letter to Stephen. (write response)

 

Stephen Henderson,

My name is Thomas, I am Katherine’s son. I received the latest letter that you sent my darling mother. I am sorry to be delivering tragic news to you at this time, my mother has since passed between now and her last correspondence with you. I am positive she meant very much to you, as it seems you did her. As you know she was extremely religious, and it would be fitting to say that she is with Jesus and the finest angels now. 

Her departure has left me with the responsibility of making her funeral arrangements and clearing out her home. In fulfilling my duties, I found letters you had sent her throughout her life. I thank you for being good company to her. I did not know if I would ever get the chance to make contact with you, but now that I know you are in good health I would like to invite you to a funeral planting ceremony for her. It will take place in three weeks’ time. You are welcome to stay here with me in her home while her arrangements are being made. It is an honor to speak with you.

If you do so choose to travel here, I hope you’ll bring her half of the letters. My mother never spoke much about her younger life, and I wish to learn more about her. I hope to meet with you soon. 

Sincerely,

Thomas Louis Anderson

  Katherine,

 I'm sorry for the delay in response. 

It's taken me a long time to process 

your last letter. (and even now, I don't 

think I've come to terms

with the finality or extent of what you 

have told me.)

 I can only imagine the emotional roller

coaster poor Thomas must be riding on 

right now, but I'm glad to hear that (at 

least on the surface) he's been able to help you through this most terrifying, horrible time. 

 As you know, I've always been a pretty 

cynical, non-religious person, (due to my own horrors experienced and endured in youth) but I must say that, 

through these years of our correspondences I have become what 

most would term Spiritual, and much of that has been your doing , so for that 

I'm eternally grateful. (and I believe you, about the white door. I think we all have our own.."White Door"..but it always seems to open too SOON for the Best of Souls and that is something that 

I will always struggle with regardless of the strength of my newfound faith.)

 I promise you that I'll do what I can on my 

end, to see that your wishes are carried out to the best of the acting survivors abilities, 

and I'll help dear Thomas in any way I can 

to know The Katherine that I Know. The Good and the Bad, Happy and Sad. If that is 

your Wish.

At the moment my mind recalls our earlier 

correspondences, when I was still struggling 

with Faith and essentially Nihilistic in my 

views. How patient and unwaveringly supportive you were. You never once got mad, or ignored me...never walked away,(in spirit or in pen) and I truly believe it was 

THAT which made the greatest of difference 

in my learning to see The Beauty, and Goodness and JOY that can still be found in Life if one can lend themselves to the finer 

"Angels of their Nature" as you liked to say.

(I too am enamored with the words of Lincoln.)

 While I understand, I do regret that I was 

not able to spend more time getting to know 

Thomas , and watch him grow into the good,

faithful, independent man he's become. 

But I feel (through our correspondence) that 

on a deeper level I HAVE gotten to experience that growth and transition through you, and the many letters you've 

sent.

 It's doubtful he remembers me. He was so 

very young at the time of your visit here.

But something tells me he and I will be able 

to help one another through this most terrible and unfortunate of times, and I hope I'm able to tell him of all the inspiring things 

you said and did to help me when I was down. (things which would be far too innumerable to mention if attempted in pen.)

 *

Ok. Sorry (again). It's been three days now

since I last worked on this letter. It's something I've been mulling over day and 

night ..because I'm struggling with the finality of it. The * Goodbye Nature of it..

it felt like I am closing a book during one 

of my favorite chapters and I don't want the 

Book to END.